The Future? Define Future..

Future - a time that isn't present, is to be
my future? pretty fuckin distant is what it seems to me
see, When I take a look around those around me
I surround me with some sound dudes like dope beats
like the bass that drops and keeps the mood uptempo
with a little bit of a melody that pauses... uno momento
then this melodic journey includes a deep chordophone
it's all alone, playing solomnly, calmly, eerily like a painful moan
and once the percussion drops a-gain, my emotion's like the Obama campaign
like, I know times are hard now, beyond the scope
don't know how, but I'ma find me some motha fuckin hope
cuz, the more i think of plans that are to BE had
I be MAD at all the failures of my DAD,
like DAMN! Why couldn't you have been THE man
nah I got stuck with a bum who gave me all that he HAD...
Sad? Truly, like an ungrateful fuck, but I'm stuck
broke, no buck to buy a lottery ticket to test my luck
the more i think, I see that you can't make money WITHOUT MONEY
and shit, the more I know I grow
and believe that poverty is a self FULFILLING PROPHECY
I sit and think about how great it can be
but it sucks to see the man that I am, then analyze the man that I CAN be
and think, if I can arrange a time and place for them to meet
SHIIIIITTT, I don't know what'll happen but I ponder
I'll make a run for the greatness of Alexander
but for now I meander, I walk aimlessly I ramble
I look behind me and see a train wreck
I look ahead and see a gap
can't see the other side, but feeling froggy
want to make that leap, but My future's lookin foggy
never been the type to take the risk not knowing the reward
but should I ball my fist take one step back and leap forward?
and if I fall? Where do I land? where do I go? What do I do?
who to call? Can't ask for a hand, well I must do as I must do
So I watch those around me graduate into bigger/better things
look at the foggy valley wishin I had wings
not knowing what the future brings, knowing no-things...
nothing for myself, just what other people tell
but fuck it right? no one built Rome in one night
and what the hell? Falling is better then standing in one spot all my life
So I'ma take that step back, fuck it I'll take two
get left back for a semester fuck it make it two
establish a legacy where I stand, make fists outta my hands
start a run then take a lunge into the foggy abyss
and if the other side I miss, I'll be further along then where I stood
but when I land past this gap, well...I always knew I could...
But that jump's gonna have to wait, maybe just a day
but who's to say I haven't jumped already anyway?
forward vision's always blurry, corrections there are plenty...
but hindsight...man... that's always 20/20
look at the past, avoid the same mistakes, it helps
because if corrections aren't made, history repeats itself...
nervous at what's to come, I wipe the sweat from my brow
If I want to cash my check in the future, need to bounce like my checks right now
so I take a deep breath, start to run see where it takes me
I'ma work for mine... what have you done for yours lately?

Something Old...

This is some old shit I wrote... Decided I'd put it up... I tweaked it a lil though...

I’ma explain myself for the niggas that ain’t meet me
Im a narcessist, talk lots of shit, my dude believe me
I don’t want you to love me for what I can be
I want to be loved for me
But admittedly I’ve got only a few qualities worth being seen
Cuz I only care about myself, I only give a shit about me
I care little for others, no one understands what I mean
These are the flaws in my personality
And one can say, well if you know your flaws you can change
Yea no doubt I can change but then I wouldn’t be ME
I wouldn’t be genuine I wouldn’t be real
I’d be a conformist to your ideal
I’d be a cookie cutter, reproduced to your liking
like punch isn't still punch after the spiking...
And ideally if I changed into something you liked
Then what the fuck would give me the right
To be independent, to be someone you should mention
To be someone not worth disrespectin?
Cuz when it comes to respect man mutherfuck fame
Respect thyself FIRST, understand the meaning of thy name
The reason for one’s being, the development of one’s path
the reason I'm completely different from YOUR ass
I eat sleep work and shit, don’t quit, not a quitter, never been
Becoming the leader, setting up my next of kin
Because if there’s one thing you need to understand
Is that I only want to be a better man
then my dad, his dad, and the man before him
because best beleive to this world I will bring
the best of what I got, and that's better then most
My mediocre still better then your best, not to boast
but I slack to conform, I take days off to let you catch up
I'm so ahead of the game that I set the norm
I'll Lap you twice if I go any faster...
A ha! See ya kids, I'ma leave you with this
when I'm at the top of my game, you couldn't drink my piss
you couldn't afford to eat my shit, it'd be a culinary delicacy
compared to the garbage you consider competition against me
yea I really should stop talking bout myself...
but I'm so far ahead of second, I can't even SEE anybody else....

I Blog Therefore I Am

Here's a change of pace for you fuckers. Some rude visitors woke me up and sent me into insomnia. In my struggle to sleep I find myself with several things that "BOGGLE THE MIND"...

For starters, did it ever occur to anyone that previous civilizations had a greater understanding of the Earth then we do today? They had a level of knowledge and understanding that was not transferred to future generations. Examples? Pyramids of Egypt, Mesopotamia, Stone Henge, and to a lesser degree Atlantis, the sunken city. Even a lilttle more contemporary were Socrates, and Aristotle and such. If I am not mistaken Socrates (or someone of that time, maybe Aristotle....) was able to calculate distance, TO THE INCH, by how big something looked from a distance. He was also able to tell how big said object was, and in many instances how much it weighed to the pound. Ancient civilizations built Pyramids with stones heavier then most buildings today BEFORE the invention of the wheel. Within these massive pyramids there were an array of complex, maze like tunnels that were illuminated (supposedly) by copper plates that reflected light from the tunnel's opening throughout the entire tunnel system. Stone henge only recently was hypothesized to be a burial ground. However, the question of how the huge structures were constructed elludes scholars to this day.

Fast forward to 2009, in an ever more technologically enslaved world, we cannot calculate tip without calculators. We go ape shit crazy if our phones die, with it going our percetion of time being that many Americans (mostly the younger generations) don't wear watches any more. Our concept of intellegence revolves around an Educational system that has proven full of flaws and remains behind that of which the Ancients receiveed. In those civilizations the average age of death was around 30. We've tripled that number and halved the average intelligence of the Human race.

So driven by money, we, the contemporary Human Species, fail to truly acheive our potential. We gauge success in our Yearly Salary and the size of our lawn (personally the lawn comment bears no weight, I am a product of an Urban Environment). We have yet to explain how the Pyramids were built so PERFECTLY so as to mark the cardinal points (North, South, etc) without the use of a compass (created much thereafter).

SO the question remains, how were we able to do those things, and how was that information not passed along the generations? It is said that there was Alien interferance, and although that would be a cute and quick explanation, why would said interferance be so involved then and nothing have happened since then to that capacity? Why have they not come down and built MORE SHIT? Are they still tight about the Roswell crash? Get over it.... But seriously I doubt all this E.T. nonsense....

Fact of the matter is that as a race we have regressed. The Ancients wanted to prove somethign of themselves and have accomplished feats that we have yet to figure out today. In our society we fail to reach heir level of understanding because simply... who gives a fuck? But ultimately we become so entangled in technology and to a greater extent ourselves, that we fail to realize that no one is acheiving in leaving behind a legacy. Look at all the great leaders of our time... Martin Luther King Jr., probably the best at what he did. Anyone else, a leader, a voice of the people... Obama? No, Presidents will never truly be leaders, they get entirely too much funding to be able to stand up for something that may not be in their sponsors interest. Furthermore, the man said he was coming out of Iraq and pulling out of the war and is now sending more troops and wants to secure some other spot and blah blah.... BS Promises....

Our generation lacks leaders, our generation lacks knowledge. We are uninterested in the things that don't advance us in the goals that we have put forth in 2009... $$$ or our own laziness and self interests. So involved are we in the idiot box, and the importance of whether I got my car washed, washed my $150 jeans, have the matching hat to the Jordans I just bought etc...etc... that we have stunted and even regressed our intellectual growth as a society. Few people can truly sit around and discuss the smokescreen that is the media and how people are wearing masks because of the fear over (the handful of deaths) attributed to swine flu, but people are still not wearing condoms for fear of AIDS.

We as a generation need to realize that the reality we live in is not necessarily the reality of the next person. The concept of reality is socially constructed and as such the reality one lives in is ultimately subject to the history and life experiences of the indivudal and the way those things influence his analysis of current affairs. Secondly, this self created reality is also largely molded by the powers that be, media mostly. We think there's a major crisis over swine flu.... like 20 people have it and it's not much worse then the regular flu... look it up, people die from the flu on the regular.... This reality that is created for us makes us slaves to the "directors" of this reality. SOOO if they want niggas to be afraid of a flu... then it will happen, and like a bunch of fools we will get 30 additional vaccinations, wear the surgical mask and gloves and sit 3 seats away from the coughing kid in class. This happens on a daily basis with a lot of things... which I willl NOT get into... lol...

The Ancients looked to the sky and created calanders and the concept of time and space. They came up with theories that have yet to be disproven to this day. Scholars worked hard, not for money, but for the attainment of knowledge... Just to know, so that they themselves were not slaves to what others told them. Here we are in 2009 reading the National Enquirer wondering if Batboy really does exist.

Ultimately, your life is what you make of it. Everyone strives to make a buck, but no one is trying to leave behind a legacy anymore. No one cares about intellectualism and expanding the mind, because if you do you're either crazy or broke... mostly both. So you go to work and have a nice car, and nice house, you die, nothing happens, no one (other then friends or family... sometimes NOT EVEN) ultimately cares and in a few years they too will forget you and your life meant nothing. Like an ant that was crushed but a man's foot you were insignificant to the greater good of the world.

My advice? Read a book, read several. Read conflicting articles. Construct a new reality, a more informed one, and don't be afraid to construct one that is not necessarily in your best interest (one that may sacre the hell out of you). There is a possiblity you have no control over your own life... Get control by informing yourself, question everything, leave no stone unturned. The Ancients built pyramids, someone created the concept of time, these people were no older then 20-30 year olds. Stop worrying about your Twitter/Facebook/Myspac/Blog/(insert random needless technology here) and build a fucking pyramid...

Any thoughts?

The Intro...

Hello everybody what's good? Lets get it poppin...
My name's Yoniel, and this is my first attempt at bloggin
I figured most blogs on here were either boring or intellectual
Nothing special, but me I'm the type to create a spectacle
respectable, and never susceptible to conforming with the rest of you
So me I'm a deliver something different and unexpected like a wrong order
but when you open it realize it'll be just what the Dr ordered
just what you needed, just what was in order
I'm just a regular nigga with a "go against the grain" disorder
I'm getting in the loop like a basketball gettin in the hoop
like im sittin on a stoop just to gossip about you
well maybe not about you, but something that you knew
or about something new, something that I never knew
this blogging shit seems cool, something different to do
something to give ya'll a taste of the shit that goes on in my head
with that said, word of warning to heads who are easily offended
cuz suspended in my cranium are thoughts considered offensive
relentless, sometimes manic depressive, oftentimes defensive
but never oppressive, maybe obsessive, mostly senseless
expect silly shit, and you'll get into it cuz i'm not into all that emo shit
that i wanna kill myself shit, and if you know sum1 like that
take away everything he can kill himself with
I'm about to go, I'ma leave right quick
but I'll be back and ready to talk some shit
I'll come back with an attitude that won't quit...
and if you get offended or don't like it? EAT A DICK....

LOL....
This is the product of Boredom... Hopefully I put out something a little deeper... eventually... LOL